25th March 2019

I really wanna go crazy i swear........ arghhhhh......

23rd March 2019

Fucking gonna go crazy... can literally break down anytime... fuck...

22nd March 2019

Can somebody? Just somebody, kill me please?...

6th December 2018

Kept dreaming of you... sigh... The content of the dream, how i wish it is really the opposite in reality...

2 years ago today, we had our first kiss... time passes so quickly when we were happy... and yet so slowly when i am hurt...

23rd November 2018

Kinda disappointed in you... the way you act and thinks... becoming who you said you will not become... contradictions much... please be better and dont make me think i believe in you wrongly...

9th November 2018

Constantly...

Found myself constantly wondering what you're doing...
Found myself constantly wondering how was your day...
Found myself constantly worrying about you...
Found myself constantly worrying about you jumping into the guy you like doing inappropriate actions...
Found myself constantly worrying that you could be taken advantage of...
Found myself constantly worrying if you're okay as you drank alcohol and you cant drink much, which may make you cannot think straight which you think you can, then start hugging/touching/kissing the guy, giving him the chance to do the same back to you...
Found myself constantly checking up on you...
Found myself constantly thinking about you...
Found myself constantly attached to you psychologically, emotionally and physically...
Found myself constantly being unable detaching myself from you...
Found myself constantly killing myself with everything of you...
Found myself constantly knowing the fact that i cannot do anything about it but yet still constantly doing all of the above...

My love for you is constant as ever... And i'll constantly be there for you if you ever need me...

8th November 2018

Killed myself for your happiness... Really hope you'll be happy... Dont make the same mistakes... Learn that every relationship you need to fight to stay in love... No relationship is easy and smooth... Please take care of myself and dont get your hurt... and dont get yourself taken advantage of... Whatever happens... I'll still be there for you... I love you...

7th November 2018

7-11... a day i would never forget... the day where it all ended... may one day miracle happen and spark us again...

6th November 2018

The deepest scar i've ever get... a scar it may never heal... a reverse of how the scar is caused is the only way to heal...

6th November 2018

Lost... so fucking lost without you... find myself wondering around and wondering around and wondering around... got myself too fucking attached... be it emotionally... mentally... or physically... cant seem to find a way to detach myself... i just need to act right... act like i am fine and i can do this... idek how i am gonna survive through... somebody just inject me to sleep to numb all of these feelings... memories... pain...

5th November 2018

Yet another night of crying myself to sleep....

5th November 2018

I am just speechles.... totally speechless.... it breaks me so hard i know nothing to say.... killing myself would make me feel better maybe... can somebody kill me please... hit me... whatsoever... just physically hurt me please... let me exchange whatever pain i am feeling now with physical pain... i am just... speechless... all i can think about now is just... I love you... about how much i really love you...

31 October 2018

This........

30th October 2018

I wish i am dead...

30th Oct 2018

https://www.facebook.com/399369750135897/posts/2489941924411992/

17th Oct 2018

I really really really hope things goes well between us...

15th Oct 2018

Feeling so uneasy that i only want your comfort...

15th Oct 2018

I swear my heart is weak af...

13th Oct 2018

Sorry for being annoying by over concerning... all because i really love you... 😔 haiz... 😞

13th July 2018

I am really really really tired... chasing you is really fucking difficuly do you know?... fighting for you exhaust me... but i love you and that is why i continues to fight for you... and because i really love you... and if you really wants to go back to him... tell me... i will step back, walk away and let you go... I dont know how i am gonna survive it but tell me... i will do my best to let you go... and not obstruct your happiness... just know that... i really really really love you... and really really really want to be with you... which i am willing to do anything just to be with you...