30th August 2017

01:19am... here i am... unable to sleep and tearing... missing her...

30th August 2017

It just feel like my heart gets a cut from a knife for each day that passed without you... doubt i can survive this pain...

30th August 2017

Out of a sudden while otw home just now... heart felt damn fucking heavy... missing her so fuckong much... started tearing while walking back home... decided to take a walk at the park cos didnt want to go home while tearing... all the chinese songs out of a sudden just fitted my mood and tells it all about what i feel and think... the more the songs continued play... i more i teared... while thinking about her and missing her... haiz...

29th August 2017

Been 3 weeks... only 3 weeks and so much has changed and happened... what am i gonna do with my life... i miss her...

28th August 2017

Congrats on getting accepted by EAE... feeling happy for you... now that you have no more burden like me to carry... hope you will continue to jiayou and study hard for your Os...

28th August 2017

Everything reminds me of you... i just cannot stop thinking of you... i miss you... i really fucking miss you... i need your hug so much... and it fucking hurts knowing that i can never get your hug again... fml... really fml...

27th August 2017

You totally killed me inside out babe... you broke every single promise you made... you contradict everything you said with your actions... you said you wont but you do it... you said you will but you did not... your actions just show that you've never really love me... you show no remorsefulness... haiz... i love you...

27th August 2017

Dreamt of you thrice this week... sigh... we were so sweet in my dreams... you even asked me "come back to me please"... knowing it all will not happen in reality...

27th August 2017

Hard earned streak... gone... 448... you just keep giving me the feel that you dont even want to be friends and work our way up again... what a dirty way of leaving... you really need to reflect on yourself... i love you... but there are things you always think you're right but you're wrong...

26th August 2017

I am just a failure in relationship... nobody... nobody can just love me and stay in life... am a fucking failure in everything... people i love just always leave me... people just love to throw my heart around and shatter it...

26th August 2017

Haizz.... just want her to know that she can never find someone who will love her like me...

26th August 2017

So... she indirectly initiated a break up... what a way... so noy clean... through text?... I really love you... but your actions really contradicts your words... i really hope you reflect on yourself... i know where i went wrong but you just dont think you did any wrong that contributed to the situation we are in now... you say you feel pain... i dont understand how you feel pain when you're the one leaving and said your feeling faded... you dont even know if you love me... how does when you has no feeling and dont know if you love me, choosing to leave made you feel pain... i really dont understand... and i am here... just here listening and watching to your contradicting words and actions while the knife just stab deeper and deeper into my heart... dont tell me i dont understand because i understand the pain more dhen you... more dhen you thought... even if you understand the pain but so what...  you're not feeling the pain now.... and i am feeling it now... and all you do was... unfriend me?... and telling me things?... really hope you act and solve things maturely if you want to convince me you actually understand... if not... you dont... taking a break to us it to break up is already a dirty act... sigh... i gave you all i could... and you just re-enacted my past again and smash everything i gave you... my love for you... my heart.... my trust and faith in you... everything... you smashed everything... instead of solving it... you chose to ignore it and walk away... please mature up and self reflect... put your ego and pride away... it wont help you solve things maturely at all... i really hope we could work our way up again... and one day... back together again... i really love you... baby...

25th August 2017

She removed me as friend on snapchat... idky... reallt want to know why... it just bring me to tears... she still doesnt know i am living through pain everyday...

21st August 2017

It has been 2 weeks... I really really miss you baby... idk about you... I have been trying so hard to suppress my need to check on you...

16th August 2017

Sigh.... guess baby got what she wanted in snapchat... kept ignoring my snaps instead of replying... keep snapping her other friends and now our hard earned heart is gone... whats next? Streak also gone?... I not gonna use snapchat streak as whats holding our love but... she's just showing that in her back of her head she already decided not to get back together...

15th August 2017

Taking a big step... trying to accept the temporary break baby want to have... please understand that it is really not easy at all for me to take this break and you know it very clearly... really hope you are not going to break me up and come back to me to save me... this temp break... i let you focus on your studies and away from relationship for awhile until you feel like you're ready... and i will use this time to work on myself... to be better for you... starting from friends... work my way up and court you again... Hopefully you can see it and come back to me telling me you love me and lets get back together... that would be the best thing i could ever receive in my life...

14th August 2017

Baby promised that one thing for sure is that she will talk to me but seems like its not... she just constantly ignores me... do you miss me baby?... do you want to talk to me?... if you do just stop pretending... i really miss you... and i really want to talk to you... i really dont know how long you want to torture me like this... 😧

13th August 2017

Although its just been 1 week and 4 day since baby angry at me and decided to take a break... it feels like months to me... seconds feeling like minutes... minutes feeling like hours... hours feeling like days... days feeling like weeks and weeks feeling like months...

I want you to know baby... this break you're taking is like putting me in ICU... its either you save me or let me die... 😔😔😔 Its really pain and i am taking it all in pretending i am okay...

I really love you...

13 August 2017

I really really really want to know... is it easy for baby to just take a break like that... is it easy to just ignore me and not talk to me... is it easy for her not to see me... i really want to know... because its killing me inside... i dont want a break... i want to just continue... hold on and fight my way to be better for her instead... i want to talk to her as per how we always do... i want to see her... i am only human... i have feelings... idk if you realise doing this really hurt my feelings... i gave you my heart... it is on your hand with you... please keep it safe and come back soon... please do not break it... as it was broken once...

13th August 2017

Fever... time like this... how i wish you could place your hand over my forehead to feel and compare the temperature... telling me you think i having fever and advise me to rest more...