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Friday, August 21, 2009

Yesterday went to Seoul Garden with Serkit, Darren, Dion, Riduan, Jinhui, Welson, Bennicker, Weimin, Weikiat and Stephen. Had fun over there. haha. We ate damn alot la. lol. Keep cooking and taking food.. Went earlier with Bennicker and Weimin because we met earlier to play arcade but finish playing early too.. So went there earlier then them. Three of us cooked like more then 5 plates of chicken meat before the rest came.. haha. Quite full in the start but rest awhile to digest just before they reached. They came after that at 1pm and started eating again.. Having fun as usual what we also joke about till 3.15, Darren and stephen came. hahaha. They came in, sat down, food was prepared and cooked for them because we scared got no time for them to eat, then, when darren picked up the fork and start chewing on the chicken, ALL of us stood up. lol. Then he was like shocked, haha, thinking why all stand up?? lol. All of us stood up because we going to take food. haha. Our second chionging round. Kept eating and eating la, damn damn full lor. Finish eating liao, all of us went to take all their sauce and whatever they have like ice-cream, soya-sauce, satay sauce and etc to pour it into the soup. haha. Then we play sissors paper stone, lose one drink. But, just only drink oh, you must drink, smile and show good sign at the same time for 5 seconds then you can drink water. haha. Cause we know the soup is so so so damn disgusting as it is tested by Darren and Bennicker. lol. Then we played like more than 5 rounds i think. Only got Me, welson and dion never lose. So lucky. haha. But in the end welson volunteered to drink because he want to try.

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Tuesday, August 18, 2009

This song is just singing how i feel...



So empty can't feel no more
as I'm left with my tears on the floor.
I wait for my heart to mend,
but you keep tearin a hole.

Inside I'm so lost
in the middle of my heart
it's a battlefield of love
I've been fightin for too long.

And now I'm shattered
(From the chip in my heart, kept takin it til it broke)
Oh how it hurts
(Felt it slip from your hands, hit the ground and now it shattered)

I'm so shattered
(Can't believe it was me, I'm so shattered)
So shattered
(Can't believe you hurt me I...)
So shattered
(Can't believe you left me shattered)
I'm shattered cut from with inside ohh

What am I still here for?
Could it be that I'm just waitin.
Oh hopin you'd rescue me
and put the pieces together again.

Inside I'm so lost
in the middle of my heart
it's a battlefield of love
I've been fightin for too long.

And now I'm shattered
(From the chip in my heart, kept takin it til it broke)
Oh how it hurts
(Felt it slip from your hands, hit the ground and now it shattered)

I'm so shattered
(Can't believe it was me, I'm so shattered)
So shattered
(Can't believe you hurt me I...)
So shattered
(Can't believe you left me shattered)
I'm shattered cut from with inside ohh

Tell me what you really here for
if you never really loved me
I gave you my all but it still wasn't enough.
Cuz all you had to say is that you aint
lookin for commitment
instead of tellin me what I wanted to hear, hey...

You took my emotions
and scattered them on the ground.
So hard to just pick up
and move on with life again.

And now I'm shattered
(From the chip in my heart, kept takin it til it broke)
Oh how it hurts
(Felt it slip from your hands, hit the ground and now it shattered)

I'm so shattered
(Can't believe it was me, I'm so shattered)
So shattered
(Can't believe you hurt me I...)
So shattered
(Can't believe you left me shattered)
I'm shattered cut from within inside ohh

Can't believe you hurt me, I...
My life has went back to lonely without you, full of free time with nothing to do but thinking of you.
Message inbox all empty but always await your name to appear in my phone.
Kept thinking whether you really love me.
A sentence from you hurt me and broke my heart like a shattered glass.
And your one word SORRY is incurable to my pain.
But there is only a way to cure my pain, is either you, or, taking a very very long period of time to heal by deleting your name and pictures from my mind.
I'm so vexed after you left me, emotionally broke down although acting normal in front of friends.
I really hope that we can start all over again as i think it is... Impossible.
But i'll still wait for you even its pain for me, i'll endure.
My life is gone without you, cause i have given you my life.
If you really really don't love me anymore or having any thoughts of really don't wanna be with me again.
Please tell me, so i can just let you go and i will keep away from you, which is do not wanna see you anymore that can let me think of you again and again.
And also i can one shot keep all the pain to myself.
SO, please do tell me.
I'm dead & gone.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Love makes you happy in the start and hurts you in the end

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.”