9th November 2018

Constantly...

Found myself constantly wondering what you're doing...
Found myself constantly wondering how was your day...
Found myself constantly worrying about you...
Found myself constantly worrying about you jumping into the guy you like doing inappropriate actions...
Found myself constantly worrying that you could be taken advantage of...
Found myself constantly worrying if you're okay as you drank alcohol and you cant drink much, which may make you cannot think straight which you think you can, then start hugging/touching/kissing the guy, giving him the chance to do the same back to you...
Found myself constantly checking up on you...
Found myself constantly thinking about you...
Found myself constantly attached to you psychologically, emotionally and physically...
Found myself constantly being unable detaching myself from you...
Found myself constantly killing myself with everything of you...
Found myself constantly knowing the fact that i cannot do anything about it but yet still constantly doing all of the above...

My love for you is constant as ever... And i'll constantly be there for you if you ever need me...

8th November 2018

Killed myself for your happiness... Really hope you'll be happy... Dont make the same mistakes... Learn that every relationship you need to fight to stay in love... No relationship is easy and smooth... Please take care of myself and dont get your hurt... and dont get yourself taken advantage of... Whatever happens... I'll still be there for you... I love you...

7th November 2018

7-11... a day i would never forget... the day where it all ended... may one day miracle happen and spark us again...

6th November 2018

The deepest scar i've ever get... a scar it may never heal... a reverse of how the scar is caused is the only way to heal...

6th November 2018

Lost... so fucking lost without you... find myself wondering around and wondering around and wondering around... got myself too fucking attached... be it emotionally... mentally... or physically... cant seem to find a way to detach myself... i just need to act right... act like i am fine and i can do this... idek how i am gonna survive through... somebody just inject me to sleep to numb all of these feelings... memories... pain...

5th November 2018

Yet another night of crying myself to sleep....

5th November 2018

I am just speechles.... totally speechless.... it breaks me so hard i know nothing to say.... killing myself would make me feel better maybe... can somebody kill me please... hit me... whatsoever... just physically hurt me please... let me exchange whatever pain i am feeling now with physical pain... i am just... speechless... all i can think about now is just... I love you... about how much i really love you...