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Tuesday, July 18, 2017

18th July 2017

I swear everything i do just makes baby angry... talking on the phone, reception was bad, i just said sorry i cannot hear you, baby can say it again but in an angry tone... whats with me.... i am really a mess for her to handle... she say i am perfect to her but she acting like i am not... she used to like me being clingy but not now anymore...

Saturday, July 8, 2017

8th July 2017

It's really suffering to receive cold treatment from baby... idek if you know that it hurts when you do that... but its all okay... i can take it... just as long as you feel okay and better baby....

Friday, July 7, 2017

7th July 2017

I am a fucking weakling in love and relationship... really doubting myself if i am good and strong enough to handle love...

Thursday, July 6, 2017

7th July 2017

Sometimes i really think i suck at relationship... i just suck... i am so difficult to love... so difficult to satisfy... because of all my insecurities... i cannot bear to get angry and scold... i just cant... i rather i take in everything and feel all the pain myself dhen seeing baby getting angry at me... telling ger everything will only make her more angry eventhough she told me to just tell her what i feel and think... because all i wish is for her to be happy... she happy, i'll also be happy...

6th July 2017

It is our 7th monthsary together. Wished baby with a long long passage. She's still pms-ing and angry with me... giving me only a "happy 7th month 💕💕💕"... That short "happy 7th month 💕💕💕" was so familiar because thats what she said to her ex... and that was the last time she said it to him... making me so scared that it could be the last time she saying it... 😔😔😔 sometimes i think i am really not good enough to meet her standards and requirement... i wish i can be a better bf for her...

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

2nd July 2017

Baby want me to tell her how i feel and dont hide my feelings and what i think... tell liao dhen she angry... what can i do... if i do to you what you do to me... you really wouldnt like it baby... but still, i love you....

Sunday, July 2, 2017

2nd July 2017

I know you're pms-ing baby but how you treating me and how you treating your girl friends is just different... and you tell me you pms?... its hirting okay... cant you feel my pain...

Saturday, July 1, 2017

1st July 2017

Baby is pms-ing... really dont feel good when she being cold to me because she pms... asked her if there is anything i did/do that actually make her heart flutters and she replied no... that was really hurting to know... i cannot help but wonder if baby really in love with me... 😳😳 i dont know how to explain further... that reply made me so confused and hurt...

Thursday, June 8, 2017

8th June 2017

Its really pain man... its like a knife stabbed into my heart and then twisting the knife around in the heart... baby... talk to me normally and lovely like how we use to please.... 💔 Am i still your number 1 priority?? Am i still the most important to you?? Are you as obsessed with me?? Do you miss me all the time?? Do you really love me baby?? Tell me baby... Let me know... Lets pour our hearts out to each other okay...

8th June 2017

When?.... when will baby be talking normally like how we use to talk again??... why is she doing this to me?.... why cant you tell me baby?... i really want to know.... it hurts you know... why cant we just sit down, explain, solve and settle everythimg calming together?...

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

7th June 2017

I really wishing baby can be lovely to me again... 😔😔😔 I already really tried my best to show you my change although its only just been 3 days...

7th June 2017

Met baby and sent her to school this morning. Then she decide to reach school late, so we skipped a few trains and went to nex to wall for abit as her friend asked her to buy food. Baby finally simmered down abit and start to be close to me again :) She hugged me again :) It feels really great to be able to be hugged by baby again i swear. She also held my hand again :) Then continued to send her to school. Reached J8, she was afraid a lot of her teachers will be around so i sent her off at 1 of the J8 exit which she brought me to. Hugged her goodbye and she kissed me 😊😊😊 I hope you know that i am happy babyy. 😊 After her school, she came over to my work to find me. We walked around chit chatting holding hands. Walked to sentosa and back, then around vivo city looking at toy r rus and babies stuff. We then went to an exit, hugged and kissed intensely. I hope baby knows that i've missed her hug and kiss so so so sooooooo much. I miss everything about her. The way she look at me, the way she talks to me, her holding my hand, hugging me, kissing me and making out with me. I miss everything sooooo much. She turns me on every single time when we start hugging and kissing. Hope you know that babyyy :) We got some skin contact and gave her a love bite. :) After that, brought her down to mrt station to send her off to go home.

Sad thing is, after she left, she starts talking to me quite coldly again :( She dont snap me her face and all :(( when what i want to see most in her snap is her face :((  Sent her a photo that she liked on insta about couples who sleeps together naked are happy and asked her if we should sleep naked together. She kept replying 🤔🤔 to all my questions and doesnt want to answer me... :(( idk if she knows that the way she dont answer my questions really hurts me and makes me think aaaaaaaaaa lot. It makes me even more insecure... 😔😔  she seems like she is not obsessed with me anymore... and cannot talk lovely to me anymore... 😔😔 I swear i am fucking sad... i hope she knows... told her i am getting sad and she replied she is still not gonna answer... whats wrong baby??? Why cannot answer me like you always did before??... 😳😳😳

7th June 2017

Now i just keep hoping that baby will go back to normal and talk to me normally like how we use to talk... being lovely and all to me...

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

6th June 2017

The goodnight baby gave is so cold... its just like a goodnight snap she will send to everyone else... am i even special to her?... when will she be lovely to me again?...

6th June 2017

Am i someone who can be manipulated around? Is my feeling being played around?...

6th June 2017

Baby is still so cold at me... not any of these (😙💕❤🙆💋) at all... 😔😔😔 I feel like i am just amyone normal to her instead of someone special... Do you still love me baby??... please tell me...

6th June 2017

I think i was born to get last seen at... 😩😩😩

6th June 2017

And yes, she didnt wish me happy 6th... it hurts... but can i do??...

6th June 2017

Its 6.03am. While waiting for time to up and leave to send baby to school, i am really hoping baby gonna at least send me back a happy 6th monthsary message... because if she dont, i guess i am gonna start thinking much again...

Monday, June 5, 2017

5th June 2017

Am i a joke? I feel like a joke to her mother...