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Friday, November 10, 2017

10th November 2017

Congratulation on completing your Os. The day you waited for has come. Hope everything went well for your papers and i believe you will definitely do well... Hope you gonna have fun in your holiday and hope you can get into the course you want for poly...

Monday, November 6, 2017

6th November 2017

6th Nov... supposedly our 11th... haiz... last year this time everything was so different... how i wish i could go back in time and re-live the moments... i hope you're doing well and hope you're happy now... i've been missing you so much... do you?... sigh...

Thursday, November 2, 2017

2nd November

I miss you... i miss you... i miss you... fml...

Thursday, October 5, 2017

5th October 2017

Was so happy seeing your name popping up in my phone notification but... being accused for something i did not do and would never do... i even told Brax how i wished i was the one who coincidentally met her... i literally couldnt sleep early every night because i am thinking of you... i guess there are nothing i can say to make you believe me... everything i do, everything i say is a lie to you... i do not want to accuse you for lying... remember you said you will never leave me and will love me forever but you did not... you tweeted i had you by my words but lost you with my actions... i really do not know how i lost you with my actions... i admit i did do things you do not like but i stopped and changed... and you still left me... i am trying so hard, not doing everything you do not like... hoping you will see a change in me trying to be better for you... and hope you would come back and let us start over and try again... i am still holding on to that little hope...

4th October 2017

01:49am... i really miss you so much... i in need of your hug... heart aching in such a way i do not know how to explain anymore...

Friday, September 29, 2017

29th September 2017

Havent been able to sleep early...  cant help but stay up in the night just thinking of you... praying and wishing we can start all over again... i really really miss you... i really need your hug and want to hug you...

Thursday, September 21, 2017

21st September 2017

I really miss you... wondering how you are doing now... but just cannot bring myself up to text you... knowing you probably will just give me cold answers and all and talk about me again to your friends... haiz...

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

20th September 2017

Yet another dream about you... and this time i wish mh dream can turn into reality... i miss you so much...

Sunday, September 17, 2017

17th September 2017

I need you... i need your hug... your touch... your kiss... i need you to need me... 😔😔

Saturday, September 16, 2017

16th September 2017

Dreamt of you... this time not really a pleasant dream... how i wish reality is really the opposite from dream... so something pleasant will happen between the 2 of us...

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

13th September 2017

Hoping... someday you will walk into my life and shine it all up again... it is just black and white now... all i need is for you to love me... i'm crumbling... really dont know how long i can hold before i lose myself away...

If i fight for you... will you fight for me...

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

12th September 2017

Been having sleepless nights nowadays... getting kore and more difficult to make myself fall asleep... knowing in my head... i am thinking about you... it seems like... i can never let it go... never... a part of me just keep on holding onto you... i miss you... i really miss you... i need your hug so much... my heart is crying out and you cannot hear it... you would not care either... i am still suffering deeply in pain... can you see... you cant... all you see is that you think i am doing fine without you... i am listening to rumours about you... all your self assumptions... when you're all wrong... i am here alone... believing in you... having faith in you... holding on to hope... while hanging on the edge of a cliff for as long as i can to keep myself alive till the end... really hope you can learn to see things from my perspective instead... i need to be selfish too... to protect myself okay... you want me to understand your situation... but who is going to understand mine... who is going to protect my feelings... nobody... in hope you will but you left... left me stranded... i guess... i will close my bottle and never open it up again anymore... back to keeping everything to myself... thanks...

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

6th September 2017

6th September 2017... yet another monthsary... but so different now... cannot celebrate it anymore... everything happened so fast... changed so fast... and fell and got hurt all in an instance... how i wish we could go back to how we used to be... happy together... haiz... i really miss you... and i will never believe what people say about you... until i see it for myself... i will always believe and have faith in you... hope you know that...

Sunday, September 3, 2017

3rd September 2017

Getting accused for something i clearly did not do... why... why you want to self assume that i listened and believe their rumours... i did not even talk and associate myself with them... i always believe in you... and i still do... it really hurt me that you assume i am a liar... you assume... without knowing anything... and talk shit about me... when all i talked about you was how good you are... and how do you expect me to talk to you normally just around 3 weeks after you break me... and you acted like as if i am the one who broke up with you... i did not ignore you... just because i did not go over to talk to you means i ignore you?... i dont get it... who was the one who ignored me... you... and i guess you wont even thought of that... and just because i did not initiate any talk with you... i am accused for ignoring you... thanks... accused for shit when i did nothing... and when you ignored me... i did not even accuse you or whatsoever but still love you... and i still love you... my heart has been slashed by you but i still love you with all i have left... you just cannot see what i did for you... you just self assume things... you said i self assume things and look now... who is the one doing it... you... i understand that i disappointed you but now you're the one who disappointed me...

Regardless... i still love you... believe it or not... its really up to you... because whatever i do now... is all negative to you... i will just take it in all i can... you can continue to assume shit... and continue to accuse me... you dont even try to understand from my point of view at all... all talks...

Friday, September 1, 2017

1st September 2017

Got to see you after weeks... although it was just a normal look or quick glance... i am glad already... how i wish i could be able to look at you and just stare into your eyes like before again...

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

30th August 2017

01:19am... here i am... unable to sleep and tearing... missing her...

30th August 2017

It just feel like my heart gets a cut from a knife for each day that passed without you... doubt i can survive this pain...

30th August 2017

Out of a sudden while otw home just now... heart felt damn fucking heavy... missing her so fuckong much... started tearing while walking back home... decided to take a walk at the park cos didnt want to go home while tearing... all the chinese songs out of a sudden just fitted my mood and tells it all about what i feel and think... the more the songs continued play... i more i teared... while thinking about her and missing her... haiz...

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

29th August 2017

Been 3 weeks... only 3 weeks and so much has changed and happened... what am i gonna do with my life... i miss her...

Monday, August 28, 2017

28th August 2017

Congrats on getting accepted by EAE... feeling happy for you... now that you have no more burden like me to carry... hope you will continue to jiayou and study hard for your Os...